Unsent LeTTerS. #3 (a heartfelt letter from a husband to his dead wife)

This is the letter from a husband to his dead wife. In it he reminisces some moments. I hope it tells us that sometimes we realize the value of a person when they are gone.. Forever and ever… And all that is left is some memories.. Some words… Some feelings. ……. But not that person with whom we shared them…….!!
Value life-Value time. 🙂

Dear wifey,
Hope those angels are treating you right… Hope that you are in peace.. Hope that wherever you are… You are happy and free. Today it has been 107 days, 8 hours, 27 minutes and 30 seconds since you’ve left me.. Nothing much changed.. Our house is still the same… Our room is still festooned with those lovely paintings you drew with passion.. I am doing a decent job at keeping the house clean too… You would have certainly felt proud of your lazy ass husband who you used to chide and give lessons on house keeping.. I still have that memorable picture of our first date at my bedside.. Yes the same picture you were so persistent to change but I loved it the most because in that we were just two individuals madly in love.. Just two individuals who were searching for their world in each others eyes.. Just two individuals who wanted to escape the world for that moment.. At that time i never thought that our love will reach its destination… And no power shall separate us not even death.. Yes my love.. I can still feel your presence… I still return home to search for that smile.. To search for that angelic face which used to lit up at my sight… I still feel you sitting beside me.. I can still feel your delusional presence in those moon light walks.. I still feel you inside me as if you were never separated.. I can still sense your sweet scent everywhere.. Yes my sunshine.. You never left..!!!
But it’s just that I still mourn the cruelty with which you were snatched from me… I felt hapless seeing my life fade away in front of me.. I am sorry love I couldn’t stop you.. I am sorry love I could not fulfill our dreams of getting old together.. Exploring so many places together… Making fun of our tousled grey hair and wrinkles.. Laughing together soo hard till our lungs beg us to stop.. I could not fulfill any..! I repent those moments when we used to fight on silly things and not talk to each other.. Those days when I used to come home late and you used to sleep waiting for me… I can possibly trade my whole life just to get those moments back… Just to make up for that time in which we could have made memories instead of grievances..! At that time I probably never thought that I will crave soo much to relive those moments.. Just like a dying fish on the shore trying to get back into the sea..! My sunshine… With the time passing I am afraid that I will lose the feel of your presence.. That wicked time is eating away everything…! ‘Life is short’ was an adage for me until you made me realize that it is nothing less than a sardonic truth.. Lucky are those who can hold their loved ones.. Talk to them whenever they want to.. Lucky are those who have that pleasure.. My sunshine.. You were not supposed to go so soon… Every thing around me screams your absence… The screams soo loud that even closing my ears to them don’t help.. Why my heart still doesn’t accept that my soulmate, the person who used to make me feel alive is no more with me..! I know you will never come back & the only place I can meet you is my dreams… So love now let me sleep to dream about you.. To dream about us.. Let me live on for that last space where I could possibly find you… Let me sleep..!